Tuesday, January 30, 2007

The first Noel

I was just reminded this morning by this particular character in the tv series, Felicity. Noel was Felicity's best-friend and he was always there for... waiting... pining... patiently for Ms. Felicity to take her eyes away from Ben to finally notice him.

There's a lot of Noels in the world.... Guys who are the best of friends but secretly wishing they become her boyfriend.

To all the Noels in the world: Just be patient. If your love is pure and real towards your best-friend, chances are she may feel the same for you as well. It just takes a little bit more time for girls to fall because they just don't want to get hurt.

Au revior,

Je suis fatigue

What a day!

I can't believe it's almost February.. just one more day. Where did the month go??? LOL


Monday, January 29, 2007

What does it mean to be an educator?

To educate means to impart knowledge. And how does one do that? By inquiring that knowledge in the first place.

To be the best educator, one must possess the best education. This only makes sense. You know how much if will cost you? $.20 of overdue fine at a Public Library.

People always assume that only the privilege have access for the best education there is. That is a fallacy. A great example of this is Abraham Lincoln. The 16th president of the United States of America became a lawyer and eventually, the president through self-education. His life is a proof that you can learn anything you want and excel in it by having three things: (1) desire to learn, (2) dictionary and (3) a thesaurus.

I leave you now with this quote: "On this battlefield man has no better weapon than his intelligence, no other force than his heart"--- Dr. Jose Rizal, Philippine National Hero

--Anne of Saipan--

21 relationship questions

21 relationship questions
Body: You opened it, now do it. Honestly!

1) Are you single, taken or crushing?

2) Are you happy with where you are?

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
Absolutely not. It has no logical basis. Why enter into a relationship if you aren't 100% committed to that person?

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?

7) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?

8) Do you want kids?
I want 4. :o)

9) How many?
2 boys and 2 girls. 2 sets of twins.

10) Would you consider adoption?

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to tell you?
Just be my friend. I think that's the best way.

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
Enjoy it? LOL

13) Do you want someone you can't have?

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
Yes. But it's more love at first like. When you love someone, that's deeper and that requires time.

15) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?

16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
No. Would you want someone to make you change without your consent? Just love the person for who they are, faults and all.

17) Do you have feelings for someone right now?

20) Would you ever consider getting married in high school?

21)Do you love some one right now?

Thursday, January 25, 2007


You know what? I have always been afraid to use vulgar words even as a kid. When I was 10, I first use the f word (without knowing it's definition ofcourse) and someone told me, "Do you know what you just said?" and I replied, "No." The person said, "Then don't say it."

When I was a kid, there were a lot of things I wasn't supposed to do or say and I was like, "Why?" and I would think, "What's the difference if I curse in my head? Will that still be considered a 'bad' word?"

Why do people curse anyway? For emphasis! I think that's why rappers use bad words. Not necessarily to be cool but sometimes, there really is no other way to express anger but to use vulgar words. But then again, what would you gain if you do say them? You're only offending people. And yes, who cares if you offend people right? But what if someone offends you? You wouldn't like that feeling huh?

People have a tendency to forget that words have power. Because we have been bombarded with profanity every second of our life, it becomes second nature to us. And men are creatures of habit. Once they get used to something, they become lazy to change!

The English language is composed of about 5,000 or more words (probably more), why not utilize it? If you are angry and are tempted to say you-know-what, why don't you say, "I'm furious at you! I'm livid!" And watch how that person reacts! LOL They'll probably be even angrier because they have no idea what you just said. Ignorance isn't bliss; it's ignorance.

In the end, it all boils down to this: treat others the way you want to be treated. The Golden Rule. An old adage but still very useful.

The what if girl?

I always an inquisitive child. I always asked "What if?" or "Why?" I was never satisfied with just a plain answer. I need a thorough and complete answer... and I truly hated not knowing. Call me stubborn, okay... LOL but I really am. Sometimes when I write on my prayer journal, I would always tell the Lord, "I wish I knew your plans beforehand, but then again, I'd rather trust in You."

Imagine if God shows you your life.. everything about your life... from start to finish. You'd probably be overwhelmed. Even if the element of surprise is eliminated, the element of excitement may be eliminated as well.. and who'd want to live a boring life? I don't think anyone wants to be bored. That's why people try so many different things, to escape boredom... (like me right now, at work.. just kidding!)

I have this friend who I met up with last Tuesday and I was just telling him, "Thank God for myspace". Myspace has been so popular over the last couple of years and it will be the 'cool' thing for the next years or so, unless something cooler comes along. First it was friendster, then myspace, then now, may be blogger. In email, first it was hotmail, then yahoo, then now gmail. People get bored of the same thing over and over again. It's time to try something new. Get out of your comfort zone. Open your mind and dive into this world called 'the information superhighway' (it isn't called this anymore ofcourse... this term is outdated!)

"It's the start of something new... it feels so right to be here with you
And now looking in your eyes, I feel in my heart
The start of something new..."
(High School Musical, 2006)

To blog or not to blog?

If you wanna learn how to create a blog, maintain a blog, or just blog, blog, blog. Come nei! LOL

Wednesday night at 7 PM at Java Joes

His eyes...

I'm at work right now, and I can't help but remember this guy.... He had the most beautiful eyes. When I looked into his eyes, he was piercing my soul. It's as if, he could look straight to my heart and my thoughts were exposed. It's unfortunate that we are thousands of miles apart. I still think about him, dream about him, sometimes wish I was with him. But I know, I can't.

I was reading this book, "The Road Less Traveled" by M. Scott Peck and he defined love in this manner: the will to extend one's self for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth. It seems too deep eh? but it's true though.

There are many levels of love: agape (pure love; love for God); eros (romantic love; lust); philia (platonic love) and I think when you truly love someone, it just means wanting to see that person grow to his/her potential. If your being in his/her life diminishes or distracts that person from his/her spiritual growth, however difficult it may be, then you have no choice but to leave.

You know that saying, "If you love someone, let them go...." (I hate this saying! LOL) If you truly love someone, why do you have to leave? I mean, why can't you just stay friends and inspire one another as you go through this journey called life? Why complicate things when you yourself aren't ready to complicate them?

Love could be synonymous with fear. Love is such a strong emotion that when it hits you, the first thing that comes to you naturally is to run away. Why? Because we aren't ready to give 100% of ourselves to that person or we just don't want to commit.

Regardless of the distance, you can still remain emotionally attach to someone and that's even worse... because that person can haunt you... in your deepest slumber... he appears out of nowhere.. invading your thoughts, your fantasies, your dreams. And you awaken, not knowing how to react.. whether to smile or to get angry because you allowed yourself to be vulnerable.

I liked what Meg Ryan said in the movie, "You've got mail". Her character said: "Why do people say it's not personal, it's business! Because it truly is personal." I had gotten my heart broken and I hate to say it, but I'm still not over the guy. Maybe because there is no form of closure and maybe because I just loved the guy too much.

Love sucks! LOL Just kidding.

I look forward to falling in love again. Maybe this time, just loving the person enough... if there is such a thing.



Hey you guys! This is the first entry on my OFFICIAL blog so I wanted to take you on a special journey.

Yesterday, at my current issues class, we had a guest speaker which talked about the upcoming "Micronesia Challenge". Basically, he talked about encouraging the people of the CNMI to help conserve 30% of the forest and 20% of our coral reefs. He spoke about the problem that the CNMI and the whole Micronesia is facing and the steps they are doing to start eliminating this problem. I personally was convicted about this.

I've been an advocate for the environment ever since I came here in Saipan 17 years ago. I was a member of the 4H Club at William S. Reyes, 6th grade. I even joined a contest where we talked about energy conservation. Then, when I attended Hopwood Jr. High, I became a member of the National Honor Society and one of our focus was helping to beautify the island.

All throughout my Highschool years, I was still involved in NHS and participated in a lot of Island-wide, school clean-ups. My sisters would joke and say that I had become a janitor of some sort because I spent most of my Saturdays picking up trash along Kilili beach, Micro beach or just around MHS. When I graduated MHS, I attended Northern Marianas College for about 2 years. Although I did not belong to a specific club, helping beautify the environment was still something I desired to.

I left Saipan in April 2000 to attend the University of the Philippines, in Diliman. I took BA Philosophy and on my 3rd year of College, I had to take a break. Due to circumstances which were beyond my control and I take full accountability for my actions, my life for the next 3 years remained uncertain. In February 2004, I went back to Saipan and just took a break. Then in June, I went to San Jose, California to visit my sister and nephew. I came back on island in November, then I left March 3, 2005, to go back to the Philippines.

I actually had no intentions of going back to Saipan and living here again. I was going to finish up my BA in Philosophy, take my Masters in Education and teach at my church, Bread of Life. I had already gotten used to living in PI and I honestly wanted to live there for the next 10 years or so.

But, in November 2006, I came back to this beautiful island again and for the next two months everything just fell into its place. The Lord was preparing my life for something greater and for the past 10 years, He has been molding me into the person He intended me to be.

I've always been a big dreamer, hence my blog address. When I was younger, I told my sister something that I never forgot. I told her this: "I feel as if I belong to the world. Like the whole world is my family." I felt that then, and I still feel that now. I turned 27 last November 13 and I just knew that for the next 10 years, the Lord will take me on another journey. I've always felt older than my actual age, but this time, I like it. I can finally say I'm an adult and have certain rights and do certain things without having to answer to anyone, but the Lord and myself.

Having a 20/20 vision (for the few that have it) means having a PERFECT vision. What's perfect vision? It's like having peripheral vision. Basically, it means being able to see all sides: forward, left and right. You are able to see things in its purest and perfect form. You are able to see things with clarity, precision and accuracy. I wasn't blessed with a 20/20 vision and yet I know that if I see through God's eyes, I'll be able to see perfectly.

My desire is for people to see the world through the eyes of Jesus. In our imperfect world, where poverty, war and greed ensue, let's put on the 'eyes of our Lord' so that we may see things in what they truly are. Let's put aside our differences: political, religious, personal beliefs and let's focus on what's common among us.

Men and women who lived before me who changed the world, like Paul, Peter, Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr., Rosa Parks,
Mother Theresa, Princess Diana, they all had one thing in common: they cared. The most difficult thing in the world is probably making someone care. How could you do that without invading their rights and personal space? But these great people have done it before. They taught people to care because they themselves cared for the causes they were fighting for.

All of us were born to be somebody. All of us were given an opportunity to make something of our lives. All we need to do is have faith in our capabilities and stay true to ourselves to the very end. God will do the rest.